depressed and tired

having my break now.. finally last day of my night duty.

am so tired and sad.. maybe i always think too much. and becos of me, everyone around me also miserable.. i just cant help myself not to think cos i very scare to get hurt again and again.

everytime i put in 100% effort in relationship, it turns out even worse. all i want is to find someone who can grow old with me. just tat simple.. however, in reality, its not that simple at all.

我很嫉妒。。 因为她可以得到任何人都得不到的东西。。那就是爱。。。